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Name: Courtney
Country: United States
State: Missouri
Metro: Jefferson City
Birthday: 9/27/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: Figure skating, hanging out with friends and family, shopping, traveling, eating, reading, scrapbooking, taking pictures, laughing, etc
Expertise: being strange! lol
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  loopNlutz
Member Since:
10/30/2005
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| So if anyone still reads this... aka Holly, I want to inform you that I have a new blog site. This site is for my Germany adventures! I may still use xanga, if I have more personal things to write... This new site is meant to be more public. (In other words, I plan on giving the web address to my eltern/parents)
Here you are:
http://auseinemlandfarfaraway.blogspot.com/
<3 Courtney
PS: No hard feelings, ok xanga?
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| I officially have overly emotional reactions to the weirdest things sometimes. Just awhile ago, I got on Facebook. I wanted to check his page... see if it would give any indication of whether he was o.k. or not. Well, I typed in his name (since I no longer have a direct link), and Facebook said there was no such person! He DELETED his Facebook??! Whether I should have or not, I called him. I had to know what the deal was. He told me he just didn't need Facebook in his life because it is a waste of time. I suppose I should just respect that he has given it up... but I feel like it means he is erasing his friends from his life. Like, just because he won't be back next year...suddenly his MU years never existed to begin with.
This is all very confusing for me. I've never had an ex before... How much can I see him? call him? What kinds of things can I share with him? Do I have a right to feel hurt that he seemed to move on so fast emotionally ? -no, I should be glad that I didn't break him... But how special am I, really, if 6 months together had so little of an impact on him? Not to mention it took 20 years to receive interest from anyone in the first place. I have so many questions and no answers. I'm such a mess...
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Two days and I've not slept a wink with these thoughts that I've been thinking. ... and I still don't know what to think. Is it a lack of chemistry? Or is it just that my overactive imagination had 20 years to dream everything would be more magical and perfect than it is in reality? Forget fireworks, forget take-my-breath-away amazing, heck...forget butterflies! In reality it's almost- boring? How can that be? I really don't want to give up my old dreams. It must, MUST be a lack of chemistry. There has to be more out there. This can't be what I waited so long for ...but he's fun to hang out with...and someone's arms are better than no one's.... so I'm not really wasting time, right?
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| I am the most awkward individual ever. Of all the talents I could have, why couldn't this be one of them? And I'm supposed to write a paper now?! RIGHT! I can't focus, and it isn't even a happy distraction.... just purely awkward. I'm a lost cause...
Is it over now, hey, is it over now?
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| Quick! Do this! Copy this and post it in a comment, respond with your answers and then repost it in your own blog!
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out about me?
13. Emotionally, what stands out about me?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your BLOG and see what I say about you? | | |
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